Monday, May 25, 2009

Ghost of my past

Today "Past" is being regarded as something unimportant. People float quotations which advise to avoid what happened, just focus on today and don't care about future because it is uncertain. But I regard 'past' a very important aspect of life. Reasons for this are as follows:

If we just avoid or forget what happened, how will we be able to learn from it? We will just be repeating our mistakes. This is basic defence which historians have used to justify importance of history. I too respect it. But I have one more point: We are product of our past. I am a product of my past. The only reason I don't have much close friends is because people are not interested in knowing my past. They just know a detached me, detached from what happened with me. They like to be friends with what I am today, without regard of what I was before. They make their opinion about me by how I "appear" today and not what I really am. Off course, my real personality can only be understood by my past.

Secondly, If we live for today only, and ignore future, we will only be ruining future. Maybe future is more important than today, and maybe we can only know about future through past. This point may appear very superficial for some, but well, I must admit that I believe, sometimes only analyzing past can make you understand what can happen in future.

Third reason, which perhaps applies to me only, is my imagination. My imaginations are full of memories about my past. So strong are my imaginations that I have started living in them and not in this world. They are more real to me than the world which appears in front of me. Sometimes, my dreams also show me what I might have forgotten. How can people know me without being introduced to my imaginations? Its not possible. And all my imaginations are nothing but creative mixtures of my past. When I say I live in my imaginations, it also goes with it that I live in my past memories and their mixtures. So without being introduced to my past, you cannot be introduced to my imaginations and so you cannot be introduced to me.

I must say, my past is a ghost for me, but this ghost is part of my existence.

8 comments:

Ali said...

friend, don't tell me that even you are going cuckoo over a girl!!!.. i will detest you forever :'(

Rehan Damani said...

lol. Ali it is not that simple, there are much bigger things in my past.

I can't see your profile Ali. Are you Ali Hakeem?

ReeBz said...

well anyone having some sense will not ignore his or her past.
A man has three phases in life i.e Past,present and future.
One can neither forget his past nor he can all the time plan only about his future.
Its true man lives in present , but is attached with his past and always busy in making efforts to make his future better than his past and present.
How come one forgets his past if he is sincere about his future?
If one is going to forget past on individual basis, then no doubt he is some sort of "lost identity"
and if it happens on the nation basis.. Then its the symbol of the last breath for her!!!

Rehan Damani said...

Thanks ReeBz on comparing it with nation. To extend it further, here is one thought: Pakistan should not be seen as only having her present circumstances; our politicians must understand her past first in order to understand her present and then make decisions.

ReeBz said...

That is very right. past is for learning the mistakes to secure a bright future.
But well when it comes to politicians of Pakistan,i should better shut my mouth and zip it tight,like i do always.

Khurram Ali Shafique said...

Why do u think our politicians neglect our past? Who else neglects it, mainly?

ReeBz said...

I do think that politicians are neglecting the past, if they had not been, then today the situation would not be similar to 1971..

Rehan Damani said...

Khurram Sir, I didn't mean that our politicitans "neglected" our past, but still they are short of its understanding. Maybe we neglect the "right version" of our past. The version of past which is recalled to people while requesting for their vote is different than the version of past which our politicians truly believe. We have lost essence of our past.