The conversion from Raja Gidh to Simurgh.....

The pessimism, the depression, the sadness in me takes a new form now. Please don't take is as an end, it is not. It has taken a new form and it will grow. I knew it as a bird, who used to live within me. I used to call it "Raja Gidh" (King of Vultures). I thought it is a vulture, as it always reminded me of my past, always reminded me of what is dead. It derived pleasure from past memories and lamented on their non-existance in present. Whenever i asked it, "Why do you think there's pleasure in pain?". It said,"I don't know". Maybe, it was Raja Gidh because it didn't know.

But now, it knows that it is a part of a greater reality. Now it knows that it must end in hope, it must end in optimism, it must end in beauty. Now it knows that it is not alone. Now it knows that it is not what it thought it is. It is not king of vultures. It has a Collective Self which includes its own individual self. It is "Simurgh" (means 30 Birds as defined by Attar in "The Conference of the birds"). The Simurgh within me is now growing, and is identifying its parts in other individual selves. Maybe it should make them realize that they exist within it, but this collective self is never short of hope. The tool which must be used is the language of those individual selves, but the idea must be of the collective self.